The Diary of Back-Stabbing

by Allison Grace
(Ontario, Canada)

"'And who said you were so special?' 'You did mom. If somebody's got a
chance to make it out there, why can't it be me?'" -FAME THE MOVIE,2009

"How big you make it, is all about how far you take it." FAME THE MOVIE, 2009 & 1980

"Everything you want to change about yourself, all the parts of yourself that you keep seceret... it's your power... it's who you are!" FAME THE MOVIE, 2009.

My name is Allison Grace T., and I live Canada.
Im 12 years old

Ever since I was a baby, I was influenced to think big, and always chase my dreams not matter how silly or big they are.
My father, was a composer in The Philippines and also had the dream of becoming famous, and is still trying to chase that dream to this very day.

When I was 3 i took ballet classes, but 3 years later i stopped at the age of 6.
When I was 6, i learned how to play the piano and skate... but since my family moved around alot, i never really got to live up to my dream of becoming famous. The only thing I did get to keep was figure skating.
My family says I HAD potential, but I keep telling them that it's there fault cause they wouldnt put me where I want to be, so they're trying to let my brother be the sucessful one (no lie.) So one day I finally stopped begging, and I packed up my talent.

When I was in Grade. 3, I had a friend named Emma D, and she was a model. She told me, anyone could do it and it was fun, so Emma was my real influence in becoming a model. She was really sucssesful in it, that she got into a movie as an extra, so she really was my insperation.

But when i was in Grade.4, I got teased for being the ugly duckling and my Best Friends were the only ones that didnt see that. But Ever since the beginning of Grade 6, I made huge mistakes and now those best friends are no longer my friends and made me believe I wasnt talented- and the MADE THE WHOLE SCHOOL/GRADE, think im a loser, im ugly, dumb, and made me believe I have NO POTENITAL of becoming a model, actress or a dancer. (But mostly model.)

It's weird... they promise to forgive me this summer, and they make fun of me in Facebook... and now, they're giving that support to one of my trusted friends... and all i could do is give her my dreams. And my back-stabbing friend that told everyone to hate me and love my friend Ann, and her talent, and i gave that back-stabbing friend (who i will not name)
EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE.

And now, I want to prove them wrong. All of them. My EX-best friends, Friends, Schoolmates and Family that I can be a model.

But the thing is, my family is really going bakrupt... again... so that gives me little hope to live up to my dreams...again...

My Dad is working 3 jobs, My mom has no work and my family members are NOT helping us at all...

So now all i could do is hope. Hope to be a model.

I just dont want to be a model to prove to everybody I AM something, it's to show everyone that dreams can happen and i can help my family earn money...

**did i mention tht im 12 ???